On Wednesday it was Aiden`s 2 month birthday! I can`t quite believe we have made it this far already.
There are still so many things I don`t know and I usually feel like a terrible mother at least 10 times every day (usually when he cries and I eliminate all the usual reasons for crying - feeding, changing nappies, checking if he is too hot / cold, holding him in a different way... and he is still crying).
I feel calmest and best when he is sleeping, but recently my favorite part of being a mum is watching Aiden smile and laugh. He just looks so cute, and my heart melts. I was so happy to return to Japan yesterday and Yoshi got to see Aiden`s smile for the first time. Hubby smiling at baby smiling! The best combo ever ♡.
I am trying to take lots of photos, but it is quite difficult. 99% of the photos I take are when he is sleeping, because it is the only time I have my hands free to hold the camera. I am sad to say that there are only a few photos of me and Aiden together, and maybe only 1 of him with Yoshi (because Yoshi gets home from work at about 10pm each day and has only 1 day off a week -useless).
Both Yoshi and I hate having our pictures taken, but while I am writing this, I am vowing to myself to change that. I wish I had more picture of myself with my parents (as a baby), so am sure Aiden will feel the same way.
As a side note; In Japan people refer to other`s aura or atmosphere, and I guess it is similar to the way we talk about someone`s vibe in English. Recently people have been saying that my `atmosphere` has changed, which I think is really cool. In my pre-baby days people (even those very close to me) said that my vibe was really cold, unfriendly and ever-so-slightly bitchy. I am really shy when I am in groups of people, and with people I don`t really know well, and this comes across as bitchy and snobbish (I know). I am so pleased that Aiden has helped me to change my vibe - people say I seem much calmer, warmer and friendlier, and importantly, more approachable!